I'm an asshole

havent updated this thing in almost a year? not sure if anyone's even reading this anymore, but oh well, i need to get it off my chest.

its not that i dont love you. its never been a question of whether i loved you or not. i love you more than i thought i could ever love someone. i hate to be that guy, but the only excuse i have for ending it is i am way too young to be this serious. i always thought i wanted a serious relationship, but who really knows what they want? i dont want to look back on my college years and say "oh i missed that party cause i was skyping my girlfriend". i have four years to make mistakes, get fucked up and do stupid shit, and i dont want anyone to have to suffer because of it. the fact that i cant be a good boyfriend anymore, and it wasnt fair to you is what made me call you and give you the news. i know we havent talked since, but i hope that someday we can be friends, and who knows what will happen in the future. God im an asshole. i never thought i'd be this guy. i've never broken up with anyone before, and i hate your tears.